Ah ha moments..

Sometimes, I have "Ah, ha!" moments...or epiphanies as my best friend loves to call them. It doesn't usually have anything at all to do with what's going on in that moment, or what's been said throughout my day, no it's usually spastic..just like me. I had one of those moments tonight, actually it was quite literally five minutes ago, and though it seemed like one of my spastic moments, it wasn't. I could never come up with the words I was about to hear and call it an "Ah, ha!" moment...as it wasn't my thoughts at all. I was reading one of my favorite blogs right now A Holy Experience, and doing a little soul searching as I so often find myself doing lately, as I was suddenly brought to tears. I can't really even tell you why I started crying, I wasn't reading anything very incredibly sad, just another one of this godly woman's accounts of her life in Africa...and then I realized what was going on. 

In this world of craziness I live in, I can't think. This is when the Lord speaks to me. I so heard His very real voice softly whispering in my ear...

 "Stop. Stop worrying. Stop thinking that I can't take care of you. Stop fighting what I'm telling you to do. Stop thinking about what others are thinking. Never stop listening for My voice. Live every day like it's your mission. I've called you to Africa, but stop worrying about how/if you're getting there, and who you're getting there with. Just stop. Rejoice in the everyday. Be excited about the wonderful things happening in your life, and in your heart. Pause in the everyday moments and rejoice that they are there, because they won't always be. Embrace the people who love you. Embrace what I am doing in your life, and walk into it with the faith that I'll get you through every second of it. Stop living, and let me breathe life into you." 

I can't really tell you why that made me cry.

Perhaps the peace that overcame me, when just hours ago, I was talking about how stressed I was. 

Perhaps the fact that I was so very overwhelmed with the fact that He cares for me so much as to give me that peace. 

Perhaps....

Why does it really matter anyway? 

The LORD just gave me peace..through His quiet whisper and I feel like I can do anything He calls me to do...at the moment He whispers again.